Found Letter.

Going through old papers, on a quest to organize my life - I found this folded into a book

It was addressed to me & signed by me.

It would be so much easier. Would it though?

The reality is, is that you say you could never forgive him for saying those things to you, but that's not true. The reality is, is that you don't want to be with him. Or you feel like you can't. Because of.

It would be so much easier, to be with him and let him love you and go straight to wife and mother. But you want wife and mother, but you don't know if it with [your Ex] or that you'd be settling. Not even settling; you would be doing it just to do it. Because you love his family, or his parents, and you loved your bubble. Because you loved your bubble. It kept you in.

You may be unhappy now, and lonely, and self-destructing... but that will change and you have to stop.

You have to stop behaving like you did when you were 22. I know you're hurting right now, but that's no excuse. You are a 28 year old adult.

You need to surround yourself with people who care about you. And that may not include -----. They may care about you, but for lack of a better phrase, they let you get away with too much. You would never act like that around -----.

And in term of [your Ex], you need to get over it. You need to get over the small town thing... you do - because its you who is doing that to yourself. You're making poor decisions and then complain about it being a small town because you're afraid of him finding out, or people judging you. Just stop acting that way and it won't be an issue, now will it?

Stop harping [your Secret Ex Boyfriend] so much. Whatever will happen will happen, and let's be honest - you don't actually know how much you like him. You like having someone. Who likes you. And stop doing that your [your Ex] too, it's not fair.

Like yourself. Learn to love yourself. The rest will come with that.

Step back.

Me

9/7/2010

Well, I think its safe to say I took my own advice.